Silence

Being quiet sometimes feels like I'm suffocating. Being around so many people, so much time taken up with thinking why and how and who they are or what they're thinking...it's enough to drive someone crazy!

Lately it feels like I can't move without feeling myself bumping into an imaginary walls. I want to scream so loud, I want to cry and shake and rage against the world and my limitations. I want to reach towards to the sky and never give up but I feel trapped on this level, I feel trapped within this area of my life. I want more and more and yet I find myself tripping up and falling over more often then I should.

It's not right to feel so out of control and lost. I should know who I am by now, or at least have some sort of idea, but I don't. I know nothing and everything terrifies me. Somehow I need to find a way to reach myself again...somehow I need to find a way to be me.

Till Next Time... xx